I have to admit i sometimes don't understand people's reactions.I write this from my heart not targetting anyone but just pouring my heart out.So am tired of being referred to as incapable of alot of things just because i weigh a few more pounds than the average girl.Not to mention being ignored to your very face because of the same,but that does not stutter me as the reactions.Last i checked am perfectly healthy,no blood pressure,no heart disease n i have been to Turkana and walked 13 kilometers without fainting.Maybe am being paranoid or over reacting to some level but lets admit it this sometimes gets out of hand.Everyday being hit with suggestion of you should join slim possible or some smirks of people's faces.
Oh!not to forget how some hawkers refer to you as,so annoying you know.Fortunately i believe i have a somewhat big ego to be crushed by such sentiments.In the beginning God created a good creation of Adam and Eve looked down upon them and saw they were good.I believe i was created and God saw i was a good creation,so to speak.
Trust me i have been to the gym and back,being on diet and all that.At the end of it all who am i looking to please by all this? I wonder to myself.God already loves me and all he desires from me is me serving Him wholly, which i do to my level best.
Anyway this blog was not to blot out my frustration but to put a point across.Weighing yourself on the scale of the world's standards will only frustrate you.Try weighing yourself on God's scale,the manufacterer Himself.Our fingers have diffrent hieght and serve diffrent purpose.Same to us,we are all diffrent and we undertake diffrent roles in our lives.Its for you and me to live up what God wants us to be and to stick to that.The people around us will always have negative and postive things to say,take the good,acknowledge the bad and discard it.Thats how the world becomes a better place for all of us.
Am happy with my weight though i always get frustrated once and while when some very cute clothes can fit and i have to compromise.And when those annoying names pop up but i remember psalms 139 and my happiness is restored.I hope my counterparts out there will embrace that instead of cacooning in anorexia and bulimia nervosa.
