Today am going to be vulnerable,i even doubt whether i will or i should share this.But someone once told me a problem shared is half solved,yeah i know its a clinche.
Here goes,have you ever reached a point in your life you think the search is over.Yeah am actually talking about what you are thinking,love.
I love fairytales,the likes of sleeping beauty,snow white,the princes on the highest tower(i do not know it's name) and the famous cinderella.But i have never been the people that wait for prince charming,the white or dark knight.
I am a simple girl so my dream man was simple too.(I will keep that dream man to myself).To me it was not about looks or money,it was much about personality,character,vision in life and principles.Most important respects his Maker,OUR LORD.
So i meet him at first i had my doubts but with time the doubts seemed to pass away.I cannot really explain the feeling but it was just there.(The feeling of the search is over).Believe me i was happy really hope going with the flow as the days went by,the love blossomed.
Then one fateful day,that message everyone dreads.A slap on the face is nothing compared to it,nor is a hard kick on the back.That heart shattering feeling that seems to be detected by every nerve in your body.
When you smile the memory of yesterday fades it away completely.Tears seem to be your daily dominant emotion,but you keep strong and tell yourself it is well.
Don't really know whether that is bottling up feelings but all i know is i don't like this feeling.Funny still there is a voice at the back of you mind that whispers,"you have to go through hardship to strengthen your courage,even a pregnant woman has to go through labour pains before giving life to that bouncing baby"
Thus i would say am better than okay,....okay!yeah that is just lying to myself.But am striving for the light i see at the end of this darkness,the relief i will get after this pain.And the joy of taking part in the 'after-feast'of this turmoil,donot know what the feast will contain though.All i can do is hope on,believe and pray for a better tomorrow.
Am encouraged by revelation 4:1b"come up here and i will show you what must happen after this"
#Trusting and obeying
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